Today I had a lot of fails & it’s seriously bringing my mood down. Sigh ):
When i'm in school: →
blaines-bowtie: “Im going to sleep as soon as I get home” When I get home: everyday.
Also I’m failing like two of my classes lol
This is what I know.
I know I’m crazy, moody, sensitive, and jealous. I’m over-aggressive, dramatic, rude, unladylike, and secretive. I withdraw from people whenever I feel slight disapproval or awkwardness. I feel safer being alone, and I run away from anything remotely good or bad. I hate when people lie to me. I hate when people don’t listen to what I have to say. And I hate when people...
I’ve come to realize… I do not like being weighed down by anyone or by anything. It is not an emotionally safe place for me to be. I wish I could be free like a bird. As a kid, I was a free spirit, a truly happy soul. And I can’t help but feel like all of that joy and contentment has been sucked out of my life one way or another. Also, I hate the idea of putting all my...
I wonder if I wrote everything I wanted to write like full out no euphemisms or anything if people would read it and care. Lol who am I kidding I’d get judged the minute I let something bad slip out.
back to this heavy feeling in my chest.