I reblog things I can never have, I reblog places I can never go to, I reblog things I could never say to you, I reblog things that make me laugh, I reblog things that have been bothering me, I reblog meaningful lyrics, I reblog things that I could never put into words.
I walked home with him slightly today. Okay, well I told myself that I wouldn’t wait for him any longer and want to see him just to talk to him, etc. I’m so stupid, I let myself do it again. Anyways, I was crossing the street to the other side when I saw him. I almost turned around and went back the other way. How stupid was that? Well anyways, I slowed my pace and then suddenly we were walking in sync except that I was across the street and yeah…I felt so dumb. Well I decided I would just cross the street again just to go talk to him.
So I crossed the street and he was a little behind me. I didn’t go up to him and say hi or anything. I felt pretty gross after, desperate and annoying, especially because he didn’t even tap me on the shoulder or anything. I just remember walking and hating myself for being such a loser, when he says “Stick ‘em up, give me all your money.” Oh, I knew it was him but I looked at him with surprise and said “Why do you always pop out of nowhere?” From then we had a brief talk about school stuff and other dumb things. I told him I was going to the library so right before CVS I said bye to him.
I know this means nothing as if you were walking alone, you would talk to someone you knew too. I’m nothing to him other than a friend.
Sigh, this is why I should have stayed on the other side of the street. I keep trying to defy fate. Is love > fate, or should I just let it go?
Lots of amazing posts that went down the drain…It was more of an impulse thing than to actually delete it; I don’t regret it though. It’s only been about 2 days…well, I knew I’d be back. But this is going to be me, truly me.